Back to almost normal

Hello there

Its been I think about 5 weeks possibly 6th now. I am back at work....feeling almost normal. Often forget I do not have to hunch my back and I can brave the straight back. I am enjoying the fading scars and its really interesting that things are slowly getting back to normal. I can almost sleep on my tummy and hardly ever feel any pulling or any pain. Occasionally out of no where I feel a pull or a strange sensation like stitch pain but as far as I know I don't have much stitching just glue-ing. I expect that's it now. The lines are fader and fader! if someone would have told me ages ago that this is how I would feel I would have never believed them but I do feel BRILLIANT.

I have one more visit to my amazing surgeon next week I am looking forward to see what he makes of it and see if he will cut back the threads that are still hanging:)

A few people were a little upset about how open I had been about this process perhaps consider this a little too much information...but all I can say is...if this information does hurt, upset anyone or is more than they expected I AM TRULEY SORRY and please do not feel you have to visit this site. It is my personal story and I am only sharing it with those who wanted to share in my experience. Please do not pass on this blog to third parties unless you had been given permission.

Thanks for travelling with me on this part of my LIFE JOURNEY!

Week 4

Hello! Its week 4 of since my surgery! Nothing major to report...the infection is clearing pretty nicely and I have purchased my first few bras:) Yes, one from the MS as everyone seems to love it there (I am not convinced) and two from sports shop. I must admit I am loving my whole new 36DD or 36E cup and I love being able to walk around the house without having to drag my boobs around with me:) sorry if that's graphic a little but that is how I used to feel. I never ever imagined there will be ever a day when I can walk around with no bra and my boobs will just sit there all perky and with no pain or being totally covered up ....!

 

The tops are still the ones I used before except they actually pop up and I can now wear them comfortable rather than open them up so much that I had to wear another vest top underneath to then also wear a scarf....to cover the massive cleavage and the way too unbuttoned tops. So there, I am a happy bunny cant you tell?!

 

I am experiencing a lot of itching and still only just able to sleep on my side comfortably and even often I half turn on my tummy....I can do that safely because I cross over my arms and that supports that area where the boobies are....hard to explain but sleep terribly well.

 

This is also the week I am driving properly and confidently and also returning to work....I hope I can cope and get on with it...meanwhile looks like spring has arrived and I AM VERY VERY PLEASED AND HAPPY because its been a very long depressive spring. So chinning up and looking forward to SPRING and a whole new me!

INfection

So, yap! NO this wasnt part of the plan! Week three started well...was looking forward to drive and maybe off to work...?! Instead...I am taking antibiotics and feeling very strange and vulnerable right now. All was going well...so ok a little bit of infection but really what is it that's making me so all over the place?!
Well for starters...its been incredibly emotional....I am experiencing a HIGH that of wow, this has been so good so easy and so amazing! and I am experiencing a low....I am noticing my kids being emotional, I need to rely on friends and cant do things I plan either cause I crash out or I want to sort things out around me. The balance between whats possible and impossible is like thin cotton thread...and I am stretching it BIG TIME!

So last night noticed the yellow oozing...I had a warm shallow bath and got out felt first sick then incredibly tired, I fell asleep at like 9pm....! I woke up but I could not even reach my phone felt so weak. I emailed my consultant as I wasn't sure what this was....! he responded "must see your GP first thing tomorrow and have wound cleaned and cleared and a course of antibiotics"
1. I am so so grateful for this consultant he has gone way and beyond his duty of care I love him loads for his guts his guidance and his total commitment.
2.I felt sick at the thought of having to go to my GP always seems to result in bitterness and inability to get what you need.
3. Panick....this is not meant to happen I was gona see my Romanian girls am then spend some mum time together

So this morning I went to GP and eventually got seen. GP informed me she cant clean and dress wound, the wound clinic told me they next appointment is two weeks time and well that only left the pharmacy where they informed me they don't stock plasters that big....so back to the GP to explain this is awkward...who then instructed some nurses to wash and dress the wound. They reluctantly did it and I never felt so exposed especially when one of them refused to use the obvious dressing pointed out by the other and made some strange suggestion that minimal dressing is better....

Anyways, so my husband went to BOOTS near where he works and got me a supply of plasters...right now I feel I should donate them to Thorndike drs surgery so that the next person can actually receive some help ...but I might need them myself. I hope and pray no one else needs pads these next few days as after my research its seems nothing is available locally. I guess this reminded me of times when I lived in communism when we used cotton wool and such and everything depended on who you knew and sourcing things was just the biggest mission ever.

So when home with the antibiotics I took my dose and went to bed. I slept 2 and half hours and felt drained as ever. I am now gona take some time out. I am gona go incognito for a few days...I want to rest, spend time with family and enjoy March 8th International Women;s Day!

I will check in beginning of next week! Have a nice weekend!

Two weeks MILESTONE

 So plasters have come off after I had decided to bath and check what state these beauties are in! I was expecting I must admit at least a few leaks or wet areas but nope all seems to be finely sorted. I bought loads of plasters so I had stuck some on as its weird not having that padding and protection?! I think its strange to look at it these ways. I don't remember my nipples being so dark wonder if this is some hormonal thing?! I cant wait to see what cup size I am and I really must not continue to eat like a pig or else I will have nice boobs and fat belly to say the least.

Sgtrange to think two weeks ago today I was blissfully unaware of what I was to do and how my life was gona change. And it bloody did change, To ever think of walking around without a bra was out the question but this is great stuff. It was worth all the hard work and all the "pain" ! Talking about pain it really did not hurt at all. Don't know if it was Mr. Kasem's magic or something but my mum, JOnathan , my ML and so on are all telling me off I do most things around the house....and I love that there is no real restriction as I imagined it. I thought I won't be able to sleep for weeks. I only felt that way the first week....now two weeks later on my sides too! I cant yet sleep on my belly which is one of my fav way of sleeping but I do sleep and that is important. I even went to work this week for two hours one evening and I managed it. I had attended my supervision and although a bit green or airy I think I managed ok. So...one more week of rest as Dr said and then will try and get back to work!...the start running and walking again and getting in shape for summer....yay!
For now rest and getting healing well under way! That is my mission. And since my darling mum has come to my rescue once again this next week will be relaxing with her and enjoying the hopefully sunny March!

I thought this op wont happen til Easter ...by Easter I will be ...oh cant wait!