INfection

So, yap! NO this wasnt part of the plan! Week three started well...was looking forward to drive and maybe off to work...?! Instead...I am taking antibiotics and feeling very strange and vulnerable right now. All was going well...so ok a little bit of infection but really what is it that's making me so all over the place?!
Well for starters...its been incredibly emotional....I am experiencing a HIGH that of wow, this has been so good so easy and so amazing! and I am experiencing a low....I am noticing my kids being emotional, I need to rely on friends and cant do things I plan either cause I crash out or I want to sort things out around me. The balance between whats possible and impossible is like thin cotton thread...and I am stretching it BIG TIME!

So last night noticed the yellow oozing...I had a warm shallow bath and got out felt first sick then incredibly tired, I fell asleep at like 9pm....! I woke up but I could not even reach my phone felt so weak. I emailed my consultant as I wasn't sure what this was....! he responded "must see your GP first thing tomorrow and have wound cleaned and cleared and a course of antibiotics"
1. I am so so grateful for this consultant he has gone way and beyond his duty of care I love him loads for his guts his guidance and his total commitment.
2.I felt sick at the thought of having to go to my GP always seems to result in bitterness and inability to get what you need.
3. Panick....this is not meant to happen I was gona see my Romanian girls am then spend some mum time together

So this morning I went to GP and eventually got seen. GP informed me she cant clean and dress wound, the wound clinic told me they next appointment is two weeks time and well that only left the pharmacy where they informed me they don't stock plasters that big....so back to the GP to explain this is awkward...who then instructed some nurses to wash and dress the wound. They reluctantly did it and I never felt so exposed especially when one of them refused to use the obvious dressing pointed out by the other and made some strange suggestion that minimal dressing is better....

Anyways, so my husband went to BOOTS near where he works and got me a supply of plasters...right now I feel I should donate them to Thorndike drs surgery so that the next person can actually receive some help ...but I might need them myself. I hope and pray no one else needs pads these next few days as after my research its seems nothing is available locally. I guess this reminded me of times when I lived in communism when we used cotton wool and such and everything depended on who you knew and sourcing things was just the biggest mission ever.

So when home with the antibiotics I took my dose and went to bed. I slept 2 and half hours and felt drained as ever. I am now gona take some time out. I am gona go incognito for a few days...I want to rest, spend time with family and enjoy March 8th International Women;s Day!

I will check in beginning of next week! Have a nice weekend!