Pre op one day!

I have revisited some photos of my pre op! Sadly I lost the ones I took right before....but hey ho this will do although it does not do justice to me as to be fair this is a very flattering swimsuit and this is after 2 years of heavy training, swimming and walk/running at least 2x a week. As I previously said the difficulty was mainly with my back and my shoulders. If you look close at the top of my shoulder  its is much smaller and thiner than the rest of my body. My bust has been so difficult to manage that I was getting really big dents in my shoulders and constant migraines. There was over 1kg of boobage so to wear a normal bra was out the question. I know I know I heard it before from people and friends "but it looks ok"...."they are not that big"....."its just in your head" well, the size was 36JJ and yeah if I did not care what I wore of how I looked I could have easily laughed it off but actually being top heavy has been a massive burden in my life.

I thought this photo will do until I find another one that really does show you just how it really affected me.

I am so very very happy with what has been offered to me. Its not easy but its ok. I have daily headaches still not sure what causes them but I guess its also this stinky cold that I got (guess my immune system is telling me....hey you kicked my ass I will kick yours)....
Otherwise is great having my mum here and boys have been sooo good! I feel truly blessed and so glad things are ok. Last night I am aware I spent a lot of the nite sleeping on my side and I was okish with occasional wakes and moves I managed a nite of sleep with no sleeping tablets or such.

So I am a happy bunny still maybe just need to get this cold over be back at work and get my routine going again!! Don't forget if you read my blog please don't share as this is my own personal account and I have invited you to read because I think you care about me and to aid communication.

Thanks!